there’s a term for it: antenatal depression.

I've been shifting. I haven't written since Thanksgiving because I've been spiraling like I've never spiraled before. I've been depressed. Scary depressed sometimes, often times. I've felt entirely alone and totally terrified and for the first time I haven't felt able to talk about these feelings because I can't find one singular cause. I know …

thanksgiving

Today is Thanksgiving. My in laws are in town, since last Friday. They'll be here soon. Jonathan is at work. I'm here enjoying a peaceful morning alone at home able to meditate on this past week without interruption. The chaos of cooking will begin in a couple hours when my in laws arrive. This week …